Following a specific football team is an addiction. When the drug is active it can be so effective and better than any anti-depressive or stimulant. When it is not working it can lower the mood significantly and increase the general malaise. I try to remember and relive the considerable times that the drug has been simply buzzing in my body and will always retain the hope that such moments can be experienced again. At the present time it is a case of enjoying any positives and see a way ahead. The main problem is that the main drug dealer is an uncaring narcissist. Let's hope that a new and stronger cartel moves in soon. Until then keep taking the tablets and a degree of hope and achievement may be achieved, irrespective of where you exist in the universe or whether any sense of improvement is gained by attending games or keeping a close eye from afar.
AMEN